I decided to take the advice: I went on a quick run yesterday to get movin’ and to see how my lungs would fare! One mile in, I felt ROUGH. I wound up running (and walking) two miles. I returned home feeling crabby and discouraged.
Post-run I spent some time debating whether or not I should race tomorrow. The sad thing is, I KNOW that what Grace mentioned was true: THERE IS NO SHAME IN WALKING. If I have to walk, it’s because my body needs it. I can run/walk/do whatever I need to do to cross that finish line and still have a GREAT time and simply enjoy racing with some great girls from work.
That’s what I KNOW. What I truly feel is that if I go to the race tomorrow, I’m going to regret it. I know that I have far too much pride (I’m a Leo to the core) to walk. I’m going to force myself to speed, and it’s going to be miserable because I feel like dirt.
After some time spent resting, (and just one green beer ;)) I woke up this morning with a new attitude!
It’s all about remembering WHY I run in the first place. I run to be healthy, and to stay strong. I run because I enjoy setting goals and I feel accomplished when I follow through with them. I run to feel alive, and to be outdoors. I run because it’s “my thing” that I do solely for myself, and not for anyone else.
NONE of the above reasons make it illegal for me to race slowly tomorrow. I can run/walk/jog and still feel strong, alive, and accomplished. Maybe it’s a little nuts that I need to think so deeply into this, but I really AM tough on myself and need to lay out a plan to see both sides and allow myself to RELAX. So relax I will do, and I WILL rock this race tomorrow! Slow, or fast!